I’ve been debating if I should blog this. It’s personal and scary as hell.
I am beginning to wonder if there is some horrible sin I’m paying for. If I’ve committed a sin so terrible that even Julie may have to pay for it.
Julie found a lump on Thursday morning.
She goes to see the doctor Monday.
We’ve talked and talked. Encouraged each other. “It may be nothing!” “Don’t worry until we know for sure!!” Said all the reassuring things that you tell your partner and yourself.
I’m angry. I’m scared. I’m confused. I promised to protect her but this I can’t fix. I can’t make it go away.
I’m not ready for this… Not even close. No one ever is but we are living a honeymoon right now!!
I’m lost right now and I need to get my shit together so she can fall apart!!
I just don’t know….