Yes, I am going to do a full blown detox.
Why, you ask?
Well, I quit smoking using the help of nicotine gum and lozenges. Unfortunately, that cured my desire for cigarettes, it did not cure my cravings for nicotine.
My friend J Will has been a non smoker for over a year now! Yay to her!! Unfortunately, she is now addicted to the patch.
These little aids that help us break the nasty habit of smoking do nothing to eliminate our brains need for that constant, steady stream of stimulating nicotine.
I’ve tried to ween myself to no avail. Instead of chewing 4 pieces of 4 mg gum, I chew 8 pieces of 2 mg. instead of forcing myself to wait until I get home when I run out of my cessation aids, my first instinct is to stop at the store and grab a pack of smokes.
So, today I decided that it’s time I flush this stuff from my body and go cold turkey.
I’ve decided to wait until Monday. The last thing I want is to lash out at Julie because my addicted brain is in full on bitch mode. Plus, I think with my hectic schedule of school, work and work outs, I’ll have less time to allow my mind to drift off to that happy place where the nicotine flows like honey!!
I’ve got stress balls to keep my hands busy, sugar free gum to help with the oral fixation, my herbal teas to help with the necessary flushing and a plan to rid my home of any and all reminders of tobacco. No ashtrays, no empty packs, no butts, no lighters, nada.
I also have spent a lot of time looking at what my triggers are. The biggest? Coffee!! There’s nothing more soothing to me in the morning than a hot mug of joe and a smoke.
So my old friend latte and I will be parting ways.
I don’t know how I’ll do. I may be a raging bitch for the 3-7 days that it takes to get this out of my system but I have to start somewhere!
I am well aware that my cravings will still rear their ugly heads even after the nicotine is out of my system. I’ll deal with the psychological aspect after I’ve dealt with the physical.
One mountain a day, my friends!!