For anyone who knows me, I’m not a person of “words”. I am an Engineer, by trade, so numbers are my thing.
I do Facebook, but that is just little bits and pieces of thoughts that pop into my head that I jot down simply to get them out in the open.
My girlfriend blogs a lot. Here lately, we’ve all been so busy that her posts have been few and far between, but she still sits down once in a while and puts her thoughts out here in cyberspace for all the world to see.
Am I going to be able to do that? Who knows, but I’ll give it a shot.
I am a 39 y/o mom, christian, girlfriend, friend, engineer. Oh, and I’m a lesbian. I’m sure if you’re smarter than the average bear, you managed to figure that out from the mention of MY girlfriend.
Between me and my girlfriend, we have 6 children. No, that wasn’t a typo. I said 6. I have two daughters and she has 2 sons and 2 daughters. For the sake of protecting the innocent, we will call them….
and my girlfriend will be Jenny. Why Jenny? Well, because I’ve never dated a Jenny. Jenny calls me “Sweet Tea” on her blog so I decided to give her an alias as well. When I told her I’d decided on “Jenny” she had this deer in the headlights look. Once I explained why, she simply did that thing where she shakes her head, laughs a little and said something like, “Good Cow”….. (did I mention she seldom swears?)
Anyways, calling her Jenny made sense to me, so we are gonna run with it.
Now, why did I decide to blog? Because, Jenny is so fascinated with it that I thought there had to be something about it. I also found myself reading someone that she follows and decided that I didn’t want to be a cyber “stalker”, so I’d openly start a blog and admit that I seem to have this inordinate fascination with a very colorful lady that calls herself, “The Bloggess”. Yes, she seems to have quite the following, so apparently I’m not the only cyber stalker that she has.
As I sit here blogging on a Saturday morning (we have pigs so we get up every day at the butt crack of dawn), Jenny is taking a shower so we can go to Austin today to see my oldest daughter.
I realize on a daily basis just how lucky I am. I have beautiful and healthy children. (yes, I consider her 4 to be mine). I have a beautiful, supportive, sweet, sensitive girlfriend that I would definitely be content to grow old with. A good job, a comfortable home, and wonderfully amazing friends.
Maybe this blog thing will turn out to be nothing more than the addle brained ramblings of someone who probably needs medication and extensive therapy. Maybe it will be an outlet for me to get all the shit that gets stuffed in the back of my brain out so that there’s room for more important things (like porn). Or maybe I will find myself sitting on the couch one day, several months from now going, “crap. I have a blog. I should probably write something.”
Who knows. But we will find out.